Monday, October 11, 2010

Me being PAMPERED!!! be updated soon. haha
singapore vacaytion was f**king osem!!!!!! ahaaa~

Monday, September 6, 2010

myburfday.wonder how my nxt years burfday will be like?

Hoi. Im old..but alwys young at heart ohh!

p.s: my sayangs pn sgt baik skali. thx alia for the kek. and syidot for the glow the dark mouse pad. **hugss and kisses**

..and sme org yg wish me..xoxoxoxox

Monday, August 16, 2010

life w/o u is osem!

I wn't tell evry single thng in my blog (obviously).:D:D
all i can tell tht this ramadhan is the best rmadhan ever! freedom and happiness and blessflness.thx to my nu UMs frns...

sme1 has told me that fnd smbdy else wll hlp us frgtting our past. bt intnsion we hve to be frn wf him/her inordr to 4get "them" is evil. ngaa.. and we spposed to get over it first.

it was hard at first. but thn ive dcided to jst forgive and forget and 'halal'kn. ehe. and i found peace. ^^ woah!
my lfe been bz wif UMs convo, review.. him.. them..old/nu frens being recnnected. hee.
and..being me, i would rather shre tots and info dat i got from net in order to hlp us to bcome a better prson. :D

dalam ingatan Rasulullah SAW yang menyatakan: “Setiap umatku (boleh) diampunkan kecuali mereka yang mendedahkan (dosanya), ada di kalangan yang mendedahkan ini, melakukan suatu dosa di waktu malam, berpagi-pagi sedang Allah menutup keaiban dosa itu, namun tiba-tiba dia mendedahkan kepada orang lain seraya berkata, Wahai fulan, semalam aku lakukan itu dan ini... maka terhapus tutupan Tuhannya dan jadilah ia membuka (Rahmat) Allah yang (sebelum ini) menutup keaibannya. (Riwayat Al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

::Sembunyikan dan taubat

Friday, July 30, 2010

apabila zina lebih mudah..

a serious topic.
..takot. my mom slalu ckp,..
"nk kiamat cepat, wat maksiat..pakai baju ketat2..haish"

sy x kata sy bek. tp sy lagi tkot bdk2 skng..maksiat di wat, dihebah. dan lebih suka mndektkn diri/ mmbuka ruang kpd maksiat. :)

Menegak yang makruf itu adalah dengan cara menyuruh, memudah dan membantu ke arah tersebut. Sementara mencegah yang munkar adalah dengan cara menghalang, melarang dan menyukarkan jalan untuk sampai kepadanya. Namun, jika masyarakat hari ini menyusahkan yang halal dan menyenangkan yang haram, tanda kita begitu menjauhi ruh syariat islam yang hakiki yang diturunkan oleh Allah s.w.t.

maksiat can come in so many ways. it is our job to protect and to prevnt ourslf as a muslim shud do. nowadys pn byk sgt cra mudah utk halalkn maksiat.

Friday, July 23, 2010

dear you.

do you remember..
..the gud aldays whre we used 2 sing our song 2gether..
while me wtching you plyin ur guitar..
with sparkle in ur eyes.

do you still remember?
how we used 2 spent our nite,
by jst lookin at each other.. wif love in heart. you remember syg
when we lost our way.. we still b on each others` side
laughin hppyly on our foolness?

the sad fact is..
none of it mean a thng 2 you syg
u used to say dat we r one..
..but u leaving me..
jst me! fighting so hard 2 b lved by you
dis love has throw us aprt.
all the intentions n time u give
to the thngs dat u cre so much the uncertainty..
continuously risking our love.

i wonder how..
u always hve enough time to mke other people fall in love with you..
..but u dun ever have time to pay attention 2 the one who already does.

i will always remember syg
each time the clock knocked on the midnite sky..
..takin me to you.
the old you..
na-ah. all the time i wll alwys rmmber..
..the hurt and love u caused.

//stranger by the day

p.s: i wll not delete ths post. :D:D

Friday, July 9, 2010

great movie//

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all..

Memorable quote from 10 "Things I Hate About You" (1999)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

its WAS L.O.V.E war!! ♥ ♥ ♥

1st thng first..i wud lke to thx all of my blog`s fllowers. especially you! (xyh tu korg la..ngee)
saya..saya..hppy. korg hppy? ngee. smlm yibi dan syg gadow lahgi. aiyok~ aiyok~..

nk cite sal yibi..~~~~~~~~and his shweetneshh! cnt wait to c him dis cming weeknd syg!
//its a L.O.V.E war!! ♥ ♥ ♥ but its still LOVE kn ebi?

harus clear out sme doubt yg ade ASAP!! xtually all dis doubt has been cleared out by ebi slalu..da byk kali aku tny. but his pst keep haunting me. sppsly hauntng him! tp aku plk yg sesibuks. *sigh* i allwys ask him bout his pst. his ex-gfs. i noe its not rite for a gf utk tny sme ni. but ebi alwys have wys to stisfy me wth his ans.

..i wnder.. if ever his pst love wntd him bck, will he leave me for her? as fr as i can rmmber..die pnh jwb tak. but b'cz of my infriority cmplx, yela. im nt beautiful fatty ugly duckling wut so ever sh*t, hrusla i asik t'pk. he is my best friend (em?) my soul mate.. my life. n i have nvr felt dis with anyone 4fore, and neither has he..

freezee** jap ebi sms!

da. nk b'sms lk.
below are sme tot dat i found on net on how to kp ourslf +ve!
hve +ve tot on ur bf/gf ohkeyh? ayuh!
. He doesn't think about the other girls he's been with anymore than I think of the other guys I've been with.
. He wasn't in love with either of the two girls (oppssy), although he did like them a lot and have a "strong connection" teett. I am the only person he's had friendship, love(hope so..) and sexual intimacy with?<-ni xde kne ngene..

nk gi wat kje?

p/s: Dear //deleted,

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Does AGE has to be taken into count?

Another entry for today. 2 entries in 1 nite. In my previous entry, aku mmg ngah hppy. In fact! Sgt hppy. I jst finishd talking to some1 who understand me the most. And **** make me realized that cinta x smestinya memiliki. I dun noe whther to believe in love lg ato x..its almost 4 months now..(yaka?) herm. But we dun seems to get along very well rn’t we syg? Dear you..sry sgt ive been hurting you slama ni.... :(

..sgt2 sakitkn org yg byk b’krban utk aku. All these while mmg i nvr been serious in love. Nvr. as long as i can remember...hny dgn mr I and mr A je learn to be loyal and to be serious in this thing call "love". tp mcm x kemana. Ive been looking, been searching.. napa? knapa??..I da setia. Dia pn..but y cn’t we get along? I noe, stengah2 org might jst ignore bende ni. and keep hoping for their gf/bf to chnge. but i nak my marriage to last 4ever. Byk sgt ppl surround me yg cerai..curang..sbb tu i t’lalu choosey. i used to ask him untuk ubah itu..ubah yg i nk. I was wrong.. he did everything to satisfy me.. almost everything. Tp the only fct yg i and i think sma org patut thu is.. people can chnge bcos of love. Jst to keep u besids them.dan xnk ditinggalkn. But hwbout life after marriage? Dlu xde ikatan..n pas ade ikatan.. mungkin kn dia blk kpd prngai asalnye? mungkin kn? ..wut do u think??

Lepas pk,..aku br sdar. Mmg kita leh xcpt psangan kita 4 who they are. KAMI pn msalah asyik dtg. mcm2 dugaan that weve faced together. Mcm2...but a fren bgtau order to chnge people.. kita kna ubah diri sndri dlu. I admit, byk2 prngai yg i x ska tu.. wlopn minor, tu adalah perangai KAMI. Both of us sama. Cna aku nk mntak dia ubah.. klo aku sndri x ubah?

Its not about age. Really. its about US. Mcm2 die dh wat untuk slamatkn hubungan ni.. and i thank you for that syg.. sgt2.

below is 1 of the exmple of our cnversation. bkn la xectly the mksudnye sama.
me: "b i rsa umo cam i ni da ptut kawen agaknya?"
him: " la kawen. hehe"

**me majok.

me: "camni ja syg u kat i..stakat ni ja? (strt mereben..)
him: " u ni ngarut. u yg ckp nk camtu. ske ati u la. mls pk."


dont u gys think i dsrve utk dipujuk? mmg ptut kn? ..ka am i too snstve?
dia cuma perlu ckp,..x lah syg. i guraw ja.. but he didnt.

bwh ni.. wll b my last msg to him. (klo btol we r not meant 2 be together.)

Rsanya kali n i kalah gk in our battlefield of love. Mesti ada yg kecam kita sbb dr awl hbungan ni started out pn.. xde spe yakin yg itll last 4evr kn? Not even 4 kita da usaha kn syg..but i guess it has to end tonite..


dlu i slalu wish for some1 untuk jga slh..sgt salah.
erm. i didn't make any decision yet. tatahu hala tuju hubungan ni.

siyesly...i’m not in the wrld rite now. Adakah aku trlalu terinfluence oleh “kwn” aku tu. Urgh..hpe not.. maybe i deserve smone btter. Dah.

mls pk @#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#$%^&*()!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: I love you. Sumpah.


Ni topic kt radio pagi td..tertarik plk aku ngn cite sorg cller ni. Nmpk sgt die tlh ditpu ngn trok skali. Marah tol die ngan FB. Me myslf pn actually doesn’t quiet like dgn perkenalan kt alam maya. Erk? Alam maya ke? Virtual relationship? Tah..aku pn tatahu sgt termnya. Tp kn benda ni da jd trend nowadays. ..Maybe da tade mamat2 yg ber”phewit2” mintak no fon da kowt zaman skang.? Sma juai mahai.. :D:D:D

As for me, aku rasa method perkenalan ni..yg pnh aku lalui la..firstly.. knal trus- face to face and secondly, knal mlalui virtual world. I’ve frankly have experienced both.n biasanya trus ke preingkat sterusnya**teett. Rmai gk org yg kecam hubungan yg terjlin from virtual ni. Btol x? Btol x?? Klo stok minah yg mcm makcik2 tu.. dia mesti ckpp “eiii ko x tkot ke gi jmpa.. tah2 gamba MMS td(haha) tu bkn gmba die kowt?” Haa.. ni le risiko nye..

Tp yg aku pelik tu, makcik2 ni pn nk kcoh ape? Even kt MMU dlu pn,.. mla2 usha kowt jaoh. Bkn ka pastu add org yg d minati tu kat YM!.. kn? Teeett** tp tgk la dlu mukanya kn.. tk pon knai kot RAGNAROK la...ape lg! ialah game bengong yg mengeffect dgn berat pgajian aku.. huhu. Erm ermm..seigt aku kt MMU pn bende ni t’jd gk kat aku.. tp i guess masa tu aku x lyn sgt BUDAK2.. haha. Yala. tgh blajaq kowt beb. Harusla cari yg ada ongkos sket..spaye t’jamin esemen2 yg perlukn trnsprt ka hapa tu. Btol ke btol? Haa...$_$


*Sbb ni la mnybabkn aku bkn blogger yg bagus.. apa yg aku nk sampai sbenarnya neh? ishish*

K k meh wat kesimpulan meh.. haha. Aku rsa la kn..utk org2 pemalu...lg sesuai knai kot vrtual kowt. Dan student2 la of cause.. tp knal kowt mna pn, ni la yg d katakn jodoh kn? Sgelintir msyarakat je yg still pndang slck dan pentingkn sgt kt ne kita knal psangan kita tu. Yg penting even wardina pn knal husbnd die through email (kn?) If im not mistaken la.. oh technology..oh ohhh~

Btter aku benti sblom aku lg trok mereben (maksud mereben adalah mengarut dlm loght kdh).

(pls jgn notice yg aku hanya mention FACEBOOK sekali je at the first paragraph. ~tralalal~~~tp soalnya!..ada kah aku kesAHH??// *nge*)

p/s: I love you cinta.

Friday, June 11, 2010

quote of the day-- "be yourself?"

yak yak!!
ghile lama aku x bloging login neh// tetibe rsa smgat lk.
bkn hapa, tertarik tol aku pd quote "be yourself" neh.. woot woott.
ramai org,..sana sini like to use dis quote. kecoh sal be yourself. tp aku terpaksa admit la yg kbykkan pompuan je yg slalu pakai..ngee. jgn tiru aku la,..apala <-kes prasan hot la ni. budget trend setter o wses!)etc.2

haish.. kdang2 yg wt aku nyampah tu, bingit2 kco sal be yourself alih2 dia sndri pn tiru org. apece?pd aku la, sma org nk jd diri sendri. tp sbtolnya pn, kita hidup ni mmg learn from other people nya act pn, the way people dress,.. people talk. sama gak ngn kita tru artist,.. kita tgk die pkai tudung (tudung yunala, ekin la), kasut, cara dia ckp cnfdnt ka,..mestila kita nk ikot. yg tu bleh plk kita pggil dia as idol?
tp biasala manusia, klo x rsakan diri mreka better dr org lain.. bkn manusia la namanya. tmbah2 zaman skng ni

..adakah jika kita x be ourselves ataw kita jst trn out to b a hipokrit?(ERK?)

apa patin mepek ni.
dah dah

arr..rr pening..

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

university malaya?

2nd day kt UM..lewat dtg kja 6 minit
mna taknya..jam tgn >>waktu enfon waktu salah..jam keta>>lagi salah!!
"salah" dlm erti kata aku x igt bopa minute lari dlm semua2 jam yg salah tu. haih

pening kpala..
and for the 1st time in mylife.. aku dpt men game fishVille kt facebook.

haha patut la rmai org addicted..dgn ikan terkodek2 yg kiut..
..rasa cm anak ikan yg memerlukan kasih syg seorg penjaga yg xdak kja "lagi" cam aku :">

p/s: sila jgn salah tafsir anak ikan tu pls,........

**sat2 away// bg mkn ikan sat haha

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

UM kt bangsar? kot?

ok. arrived at KL dlm kol 3 cmtu kemarin dulo.
bertolak tol2 kol 10.30am dr Kodiang *rumah kg. hanta ayah p spital for medical checkup,.mak ngn ju gheja.
seb bek ada anak ayah syg ni kan yah?! --smbil wat gaya2 penyelamat dunia
(law ayah pandai bca blog la.. :-?? ngee)

pagi semalam msa tegedik2 siap2 nk gi kja, si "tut" called..
hmm. bengang pn ada. skng br nk pura2) amik berat. x kuasa aku nk layan. bagi si "tut". lagu di bwh adalah untuk awk.

"i am me once more" by zee avi
No, I really don't think so
That you think I'd be incapable of being on my own
No, I really don't think so
That I would for a second let you back in through my door

I have spent many a nights
Even when you are by my side
I shed tears I couldn't dry
I shed tears I couldn't dry

But I should thank you for
Taking my blindfold off now
I ain't jaded no more, no more
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye
That could only mean I am me, once more

You would turn your head the other way
So you won't have to listen to what I have to say
You assume that I needed you
But you didn't realize that I needed no one but myself
I needed no one but myself

But I should thank you for
Taking my blindfold off now
I ain't jaded no more, no more
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye
That could only mean I am me, once more

That could only mean I am me, once more
That could only mean I am me, once more


klo ada sesape notice la.. aku blogging ni ari, aku set post date semlm. haha
gila ar. saja give myslf somtimes to melepak and "kenali" facebook dan blog dgn lebih mendalam~ the hee!