Monday, June 27, 2011

kenyataan mak..

last friday, when I was driving...mak tetiba kuarkan satu kenyataan.
“dalam tiga2 anak mak..mak plg risaukan fatin……”
aik..awatnya mak?( I asked curiously..) my mom jawab.masa nk lepaih fatin blajaq kat MMU..mak risau fatin. fatin plg manja ngn mak ayah. with dat answer she really touched my heart. dat shows how much makayah kita kenal kita kn.and as fer my dad, dia slalu pesan..”hati jgn baik sgt.nanti kena buli..kena tipu”..but I am so sorry ayah..mak..dat is me. we accept people fer who they are kn mak ayah..like mak ayah accept me kn?..
..i once remember when I was a little girl.. me n my parent pegi pasar malam n I saw dis pakcik buta mintak sedekah. for 7 o 8 years old child..I was crying.n I cried hard..sampai dalam kereta..jenuh mak ayah pujuk. sbbnya? satu-satunya sbb ialah sbb pakcik tu buta dan terpaksa minta sedekah..poor him kan. even now pun..my sensitiveness never shows sign utk kurang. mcm skarang..I will never leave my frens alone when they needs me. ill try my best to help..to comfort…to get along..I akan pergi toilet, just for the sake derang x de kwn nak pergi…but smtimes, some people just dun feel/do the same kat kita...so no wonderlah kan people always take me fer granted.. *smiling*
back to my school time pulak..I was a boyish/ignorance kinda student.dun care much about others in school.have few frens..very few.nmpk keras.but inside..slalu sgt mnangis.sometimes for no reasons.mcm dah jadi hobi lak. I kasar. ’rempang’ and i was kinda famous among teachers. I x buat kja sekola..(padahal most of the teachers mmg kawan2 mak kot..ish) I pnah lari skolah ikut gate blakang..main spirit of the coin la(konon2nya..) tapi 1 ja, bila masa tusyen..I seldom talk.seldom apa?tak ckp pn kot..mcm xsuka lelaki pn ada.as fr me..at dat time la.mcm derang kco2 tu just nk watkan kita(girls) perasan..n im not dat kind of girl..(klo x, da kawen kots) huhu…
..same goes masa study kat MMU.no boy-fren at all.yg betul2 kawan..na-da.can be listed la klo ada pn..tu pn pas knai2 kot ragnarok..ngn YM..mmg diam.diam langsung.. xbergaul..x shine. now only I realized…betapa ruginya myself.. byk sgt benda yang i x explore..myself..my ability..tapi x elok regret benda yang da lepas.dat is our fate kan..just be thankful :)
mm..and now! i da kja kat UM.diffrnt sgt dgn MMU.I used to have my own staff back at MMU dulu as assistant manager.seriously.. kat sana baru I develop myself..attnding meeting with deans,prsidnt..lecturers..students. my nerves, my inferiority semua have to be left behind..tp still I taleh lari dari kasihankan org.tp d sbbkn I was too busy kt MMU dulu..I x rse pape sgt.I spent most of my time kt office.n kerja.fully used.no fb.no youtube.no life.
but bila kat UM..I spent more than 9 hours kat office.sama..sama cm MMU.but here.. office is my life. fer dat I thx you kakak2 n frens whoever accpt me fer who I am. my world smua kat office. as a person like me, with my family in kedah..”manja” konon..and my busy “bestfren”..nthing much I can do..than to rely on them..to be like..to be love. but people can change in a *blink*. :) frens who used to be ur frens..tetiba diam..annoyed dgn you.wut can I say..I tend to show my true colors to persons who I assumed to be close to me. :) ..unlike me, derang ada smuanya..family dkat.. berkeluarga. but this is life kn.wut do I expect? I shudnt wish to be treated like wt i wnna be treated. sape sangka kn..I can cry bcoz of dis.nobody does..but trully. I lve my frens..n when frens hurt our feelin, its really really really hurts. nvrmnd.ill change..klo x mampu ubah..ill quit. hope Tuhan have a bigger plan fer me.
p/s: mybe I shud b stayin in melaka.without frens..without life..

Thursday, June 16, 2011

si paten ke-HOMESICK-an. =,=*

ok.homesickhomesiickhommmyyysickkk!! 
dusyummsss.ok ok..dn gt crried away.arini kn tgh homesick rmmber??after last week vacayyy kat lengkawihhh.. rasa cam xnk blk2 cni dah..but 1 thing fer sure.. si paten smaken rajin developing cntent smenjak pulang. kongeratulation patin. weeeee..
tp tu la.. office sgt sunyi lah kakaks2 p training.hve to skip meals. kurus la camneyhh. xbestlah.mybe sbb tu jugak rsa homesick sgt. haish. everybdys is like stressing out.. I dun noe? izit becos of audits people visit? yaw..common. xkan kot? or mybe I’ve been ‘dipulaukan’ becos im ugly? haha. adoi. chillex la..
..but hu cares? next week kn kakak2 da ade.yippeyy!! ok.cukup. igt ni fb ke.. nk mluah2 x puas hati kat cni? dah2.
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..famillyy pichaaa* whch shll mking me even sdder* =,=
;;( our small famileyh,,
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and ofcos..my home sweeeeettt home ( well ya…im tryin to relate to the entry tittle obviouslayyy ):
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..........and not forgettin rmh aloqstaq a.k.a rumah kelahiran ku.
(ok. pic ni ja yg ada) wumahku-syurgakuh
sigh*. nak blk…. =,=. mybe..kna ajak 'yaw gerlprens' (..mcm ME x?haha).. ke singapore lg...a day vacay pn cam best. nk tggu bali vacayyy—its likeeee 1 year lgiiiii kowttts….?? klo by dt time da kawen mesti beshkn cik hubby? lh honeyyymon skaleyh knknkn?? (mane mane?mn ko ade hbby lk ni?) phewww..
ihsishihsihs enche bf pn tiada ujung mggu ni. lonelyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyynyaaaa. sy nk ikot gi ‘beriadah’ pls .;( ;( dah.ok.ngarowt.bye,
oh ya.smlm ada kakak kat kedai mkn bawah rumah.. just wnna share the cnversation lah kn..mase nga nk ngorder..
kakak: kakak(she clled me kakak?wutt??)..muka pakai ape ni.. berseri-seri lah..licin ja..
*i tercengang* masalahnyaaa-- kadang2 aku tertido with my makeup on kot??? nampak sgt lah!
me: ha? ish ade2 jela.. biasa je...
kakak: eh taklah ..btoi ni kakak.. kakak pakai apa ni (sambey cuit2 manja aku..ceh)
me: ala..ni ha..nivea visage..pncuci muka.. (dgn arapan dia pegi_)
..tp cnversation ni berlarutan jugak bebeeerapa ketika.. sampai tny beli kat mane bagai. aduyai..wakaka. sengal la.. nk amik hati org suh makan ctu pun agak2 la kan? ades. tp..pls bersyukur ngn ape yg Tuhan bagi (alhamdulillah)..dan PULANGkan lah brg2 kepunyaan org ye.. :) jgn hidup dengan kesusahan org lain...
jaga-jaga ye. :D
p/s: nk letak gak picha ngn obor-obor. klo leh wak balik kan owseeeemmms?
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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

little balqish..or prefer to be called KISSHY..(video_)

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pardon my voice.. suara pas nangis. and my laughter tooo euwwwwwwww-- sho annoying. DENG!!
wawawawa sedih keta rosak wa wa wa wawawa~
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x abes lagi

waaaaaaaa
supposdly i cite kn our situation mse tggu napi kacang dtg kn.. itula..so trpksala tggung sorg2(i mean ngn mak ngn akish) wuwuwuw. but itulah kn..org-org kita ni skarang..
first person yang berenti.. was an iranian guy kots? mana smua org mlayu kita? huh kete lk rusak kt UMs gate..bkn ptut lg brtmbng rse ke? i tau la im not pretty enuf.. ade lk balqish..
dah mcm janda anak 1 pun hade.. but tula.. lets face the fact la yg org mlyu kita ni mcm ni skng.. pndang aku...pandang akish.. blah.
ish.
xbaik lah brburuk sangka plk.. later.. after napi dtg.. ade la 1 prdana v6 dtg. haaa.. ni br la kinda intrsting sket. hahah. a malay guy!! and he seemed cam x nk gerak slagi baby satria i x jalan.
baik kan? n he only talked ngn my mom je. :">

hah! picas will be inserted later lah! -_______________________-!

..n later is now: :D