ucapan hari guru.

cikgu Azizah Kasa, cikgu Zainol Ali.
selamat hari guru. growing up with teachers as parents selalu buatkan hidup saya selalu bersama cikgu-cikgu 24 jam sehari (selagi tak tidur). sorg cikgu kat sekolah pun maksimum 2 jam ke 3 kot sesatu kelas. ok saya rindu mak ayah saya. thanks to mak ayah who have shaped me into the person i am today. i am proud to have such a hardworking and dedicated parents/teachers.
Ya Allah, please grant my parents strength, health and happiness. please make me a light in their life, make me a source of laughter and smile, just as they have been for me and please keep them away from worries and grief.

selamat hari guru juga kepada guruguru di srk sultanah asma, smk sultanah asma, semua mmu lecturers, cikgucikgu tuisyen dan juga my BFF Rusputih Ruslin. terima kasih.

inshaAllah.

May 8, 2013 | #keek #lrt by snowisntcold on Keek.com

selesai.. alhamdulillah. ini saya dan kerinting saya. inshaAllah. mohon doanya yah si silence reader!

p/s: i just noe dat u exist. thanks for your love and prayer.
n please dun miss-judge gaya gedik awal-awal keek tu. nak tunjuk where we were at sahaja.

saya tak hipokrit. saya cuma jadi diri saya sendiri.

"sebesar-besar keaiban (keburukan) adalah kamu mengira keburukan orang lain..sedangkan keburukan itu terdapat dalam dirimu sendiri." imam syafie

astagfirullahhalazim. just to clear things up, i nvr meant to diss anybdy using my blog. this blog dun even have readers. bukan niat saya. for me, blog-fb-and whateveronline social network yg ada pd hari ni..mungkin boleh di jadikan medium utk umat manusia berpesan-pesan kpd kebaikan. true. mmg ada penyalah gunaan utk peenybran fitnah, even ada hadith2 yg tak sahih disebarkan. jd mnjadi our duty to mke sure that whtever we wnt to share come frm a reliable resources.kn.

to get back to the topic,..apa agaknya maksd hipokrit yg sebenar? ok..mengikut dewan bahasa dan pustaka, hipokrit membawa maksud:

hipokrit- orang yg berpura-pura berperangai baik; munafik. Kamus Pelajar Edisi Kedua
hipokrit- (orang yg) berpura-pura berperangai (berkelakuan, bersifat, dll) baik, (orang yg) memperlihatkan keadaan diri yg berlainan drpd yg sebenarnya, munafik. Kamus Dewan Edisi Empat
hipokrit- orang yg berpura-pura berperangai baik; munafik

sumber: http://prpm.dbp.gov.my/Search.aspx?k=hipokrit

kenapa munafik? come on.. sounds a little bit harsh kan? a lil exaggerated kot. i mean, mcm...munafik?,hipokrit? em! mcm tak kena ja. ha. munafik dalam kontek Islam pula di takrifkn mcm mne? mase zmn skolah dulu ek? abg google ckp, ciri2 org munafik ada di sebut dlm hadith yg d riwayatkn oleh Hadis Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w mengatakan :

"Tanda orang-orang munafik itu ada tiga keadaan.

Pertama, apabila berkata-kata, dia berdusta.

Kedua, apabila berjanji, dia ingkari.

Ketiga, apabila diberikan amanah (kepercayaan), dia khianati".

hm. xde pulak mention berpura2 baik tu as munafik? i mean..well i dont noe. wut u guys think? rsanya better hipokrit tu di takrifkn sebagai berpurapura je.and berpura2 tak semestinya applicble in negative cntax je kn. i mean..
tak de celanya kalau kita berpurapura melakukan suruhan Allah dan meninggalkan laranganNya kan? dan oleh kerana kepurapuraan itu kdng2 yg dpt mnambat hati kita dan seterusnya melakukn suruhanNya dengan ikhlas.kn.just..

fake it until you make it darlings.

fake it. kalau kita tak baik.. fake it la please.. thres no harm kan. as long Allah tahu niat kita.

"BerTUDUNGlah walau TERPAKSA. SOLATlah walau TERPAKSA. PUASAlah walau TERPAKSA.

Kerana KEWAJIPAN itu memang KADANGKALA sifatnya

TERPAKSA.

Dari KETERPAKSAAN itu.. perlahan2 kita akan menemukan HIKMAH dan AKHIRNYA HATI kita menjadi IKHLAS keranaNya..

Kalau nak TUNGGU IKHLAS.. SAMPAI BILA nak tunggu baru nak

berIBADAH?

HIDAYAH perlu DICARI..BUKAN DITUNGGU..Macam MAKANAN.kalau tak suap ia takkan masuk ke dalam mulut.."

(Ustaz Azhar Idrus)

maybe disebabkan hipokrit tu dibygkn sbagai munafik..agaknya sebab tu la bila alasan ala-ala artis mcm "maaf ..saya bukan hipokrit".. atau "saya hanya nak jadi diri saya sendiri"

true..true. awak mmg blh jadi diri awak sendiri..tapi..jdlah diri sendiri berlandaskan Islam. kita ada pegangan. kita ada agama. kita ada Allah yang harus disembah. dilakukan suruhanNYA. dan hindarkan laranganNYA.

with this entry i nk jugak mintak maaf kpd sesapa yg terasa dgn my writing. believe me, i write because i love. i write because we are family.. i write because i care. i do care..

im not a perfect muslimah myself. byk buat dosa. i tau i dun have the rite to judge anybdy. i byk kekurangan. i nk berubah.. dari skinnyjeans, tight shirt.atas bontot.. to skinnyjeans tightshirt, pakaiskirt kat luar..losen up the shirt..the jeans.mke sure the shirt n jeans i recently bought covers my private part. tudung tutup dada.tgn pnjang..n yup. im trying my best ya Allah. i'll get there in time hopefully.

but..u noe..living as a single lady agains do effect my selfesteem.well.as a single lady..i want to look my best.u noe y.as human, as much as you dun wnt peeps to talk behind ur bck.. they will still done the talking. betul? insyaAllah..kalau saya cantik macam kakak..saya nak pakai jubah poplook yg cantik2 tu..  tapi.. im single. at the age of 28. with low selfesteem dat you can nvr imagine i ever had it in me.. bkn sng nk berubah bila u rsa diri u tak cntik. diri u gemuk. dgn segala kekurangn yg u ada..dan jugak.. 

bila u pernah baca org cakap u buruk behind your back. ;-) 

alhamdulillah. syukur ya Allah..i masih lg pgg pgangn agama Allah. wlopun sikit2.. dt lowselfesteem tak buat i get rid of my tudung. every girl will look cute with a bang kn. rambut mmg cntik.. sbb tu Allah suruh tutup.bdn wanita cantik..sbb tu kita kena tutup. dosa brpelukan lelaki perempuan tak cantik..sbb tu klo awk ada buat... awk kena tutup. 

tutup aib sendiri..insyaAllah Allah akan tolong awak tutup aib awak.

♡am i playing hard to get?

..at this age?really fatin?adoi.i dun noe.i usually met a lot of guys yg konon nya mcm "intrested" in me kt lua.but i dunno.ssh sgt i nk give guys a positive responds.even cute guys! haish. i remember dis 1 guy yg i met at rfc alostaq years ago.ya Allah.ensem kot.tggi putih mcm farid kamil.dressing.simple!funny lg tu..mmg la my type. 

tp when he asked fr my number. i jwb.."jumpa lg!" haish "wuts wrong wif u fatin?? ensem kot mamat tu" ..dats actually the same question asked by mykak ju. dia ada kt tmpt kjadian. waht the.... ish! all of dis cme bck to me. i now dlm tren on my wy back to arau. ni la 1st time i board tren sorg2..and.... the same things happend. well wut can i say..i just love to chase people away..

.

situations

 1. masa kat cafe.i beli milo.mamat ni ajak i duduk ngn dia kt table.he actually asked me to sit with him.n i geleng2.

 2. kt cafe.msa i teman zakuan.11 yo boy duk sblah seat i ajak i teman gi cafe. mamat kt counter  tny nama.tny keja mna.tny2 mcm2.tp si patin?mcm dia la..

 3. mamat ktm ni. dia tny g mna..dia tny npe tukaqseat.i jwb "saja" n dia jwb.."sebab jwb saja.. xpa!" pastu dia duk tenung2 sblk pintu la.2 3 kali gk la... i ptut snyum ke? hmm.

 4. mamat depan seat i ni.xabes2 tenung i. nak tidoq pun tak boleh kot!! gya dah macam army. dan i..wat bodoh.

yg minor2..xmasuk dlm ini cerita.i tau guys mmg cmni kt smua pmpuan pn. bkn nak prasan. tp in my case..i dh dkt 30. hmmm¬ wut shud i be doing actually?
rasanyala.....

betul kot apa i wat. kot la.

cinta bukit gantang.

2.20 am, bus brtolak dr bkt gantang

aftr got bck frm wrk td, i felt like blk kdh.the main reason is because kak kt rmh sorg.n me too.jst feel like spending the weekend wif her.sisters day out.sounds great kn fr 2 single ladies.mak ayah da sonok dah kt pokbara hopefully.they hve been spnding a lot of time togther since mak pncen.pnuh da vacation schedule derang fr 2013..mm nk cane,my sister n i cnnot give them something dt they really wanted.

espeacialy ayah.i igt lg..
ade kt one wedding ni kiterang attnd.ayah got a chance to talk to the brides'father(dia pny ustaz fren.) mase tu kt kete.i ngn kakju kt dlm..dgn tingkp trbukak. believe it or not,ayah actually sort of mngadu kt kwn dia yg both of his daughters(sapa lg klo bkn me n my sistr) tak "lepas" lg. it almost brought me to tears. mm i feel vry sry fr him.i cannot believe dat ayah actually said dat. n the fnny prt was ayah x realised dat we were actually listening to the cnversation he had. as he entered the car, me n my sister strtd teasing him.. n of course..die gelak2 comel je..n trkejut2 bila kiterangckp kiterang dgr dia ckp.comel!aish..

erm.y y y me no kawen?ok.i ada kawentophobia.boleh?huh.

..i dunno wut else shud i do.its nt like i xph try.i tried n even nw im stll trying..but the guy iive dated still r not quite the rite guy fr me.its not like im choosy or wutsoevershit, i jst nded "somthing" dat can guarentee that the relationship i hve wif him will last frever.im tired of shortperiod relationship. seriously.n to be frank, i nvr had a relationship which dat hve last more than a year!!! yup.sad fact kn!???

mm im really not a choosy prson.i xkisah.biase2 je.even the guy i recently dated pun my exroomate said x ensem.hidung same kmbng ngn i accrding to my offcemate.but im ok wif it.who wll ever give a dem care on the physical of a guyyy?i pn x cntik..i sedar diri.n he is jst fine!jujur.dia ok.good fmly bckground..perfct.but..mm.mybe im jst prticular on the attitude of a prson.not mch of the attitude, mcm ape eh.cm loving,caring sme tu kot.
..i like to be taken care like a smallchild.the person shud prioritise me more thn everythng but not his parent la of course.i pn fhm agama.if this is the case..i cn only imagine i wll gt married with bapak budak je la gamaknye .
mm.kdng2 byk experience ni wtkn i jd sorg gf yg agak cntrol.bkn byk experience la,mcm i byk dgr cite2 sal curang ni sme.lg lmelg i tkut.bkn cntrol aw.u guys judge scene ni k,scene ni ade dlm mvie i rcntly watched.jst to relate to wut i takutkn sgt.ok.
scene tu cmni:

the bf.kena aniaya dgn ayah gf die.his gf was away at dat momnt.ayah si gf,upah a girl suh goda dat guy.mse goda tu, bf tu tolak.tp ade another staff lalu jauh..n strts taking their pic.pic tu nmpk cm dua2 rela lah.tp sbnrnye x.the bf dun even care utk bgtau gf dia sal tu.n it hppnt dat..ayah gf tu tnjuk pic tu kt si gf without the bf knowing.haa!

*gilatakmengamok,explainationapepunxnkdgr*

ok.if lets say, bf tu kaki repot.repot kt gf dia ckp ada girl try to seduce him..ngadu2 n cite sume2.. then hppnt pstu ayah gf tnjuk pic tu kt gf dia.haaaa......thing will nvr b the same kn.or at least gf die da aware sal tu.whther she wnts to believe her bf or not..tu da cita lain.yg pnting gf dia xde la ngamokkk kn?even klo gf dia kental sgt pn,rasional sgt pn...dia akn tetap curiga n sakit hati kn?y nk adakn jurang klo blh elakkn?
so!!! wahai encik2 bf2 skalian.xslh jd kaki repot sikit..klo xnk hilang ur gf la.tu pun if u really syg ur gf.klo x syg..ape yg u buat pn sme akanjd trpaksa.am i rite?

wua i am actually sakitprut td.i mkn detox tea n tetiba ngejut gatal nk blk kedah dgn bus plak.so rasakan la.

k.nite.♥

ALLAH maha mengetahui. bersangka baik denganNya

hi kawankawan dan followers yg dikasihi sekalian. (follower pn ada 2 org,ada hati nk kawan2 sgtla kn?) hihi.

k.arinii i feellike nk crita more on takdir.qadaqadar.fate.yg everything hppn tu aturan Allah.Allah knows wut is the best for us.Allah tolong kita dlm cara yg kita xsangka kadang2 tu.xtercapai oleh kita keluasan pengetahuan Yg Maha Esa ni.i nk cite ni sbb recently kjadian2 yg berlaku buatkn i bersyukur sgt kpd Allah swt.

i am not going to tell all.but the biggst thing hppnt to me was when i bg meletup apa benda dlm kereta kwn i. sounds teruk kn???but i nvr regret it.u noe why?sbb i manage to take it positivly alhmdulillah.

full story mcm ni. my mom dtg kl..with rmbngan pengetua yg lom pencen lg.my mom ngn her fren pgetua pencen. kne dtg sbb derang wat mjlis cm raikn mereka yg pncen.ok.so.my mom ngn aunty datin tu mmg xde ape nk buatlh.so mak mintak i amik drang jln2.i pulak, thulh jiwa rmaja i ni..i pkai satria je.mnelh selesa kn sian acik2 tua semua. so it hppnd dat my fren tggl her myVi kt i.so i text her.nk pnjm kereta dia.then she said ok.i rse i x mntion kt die i nk pinjm aritu je ke pe..

so the nxt day i pnjm lg sbb mak urgntly nd to catchup the bus yg nk blk kdh.mak ngn aunty datin tdo rmh my sis in law kt dmnsara.rmbngn tu pn agak sengal..ckp kol4 tp kol 2 da suruh pgi ke cane tah. i pn da lpe.mnelh x glabh mkcik2 pencen ni sume.i xkn pnh bia mak i ssh2 naik taxi.i x bnrkn so..i blk kje..mak i plk tgl brg die dlm kete my fren.
dh alang2 jln2 g kt kete kwn i..i pn trus jela bwk kete dia.tahulh cmna ssh nk cri prking kt rmh i tukn?once da prking? so, ps i hntar, i blk ofc.ps abes kje grak blk rmh ngn kete kwn i tula.with Allah will tgktgk ptg tu mse i nk prking kt rmh..ade bnda meletup frm bonet dpn kete kwn i.mne i cuak pn.i trus clld my fren yg br nk naik flight blk dr srawak.
seb baik dia memahamiii sgt2 :-) so turnd out yg mletup tu adalh somekind of booster yg die psang.air boostr tu kring katany.

so.ape yg tak trcapai akal sgt nye pn??

yg x trcapainye..sok tu kami da plan nk grak blk kdh ngn kete die.wut if bnde tu mletop tgh jln.mlm2 buta.xke gelabah 2 org gadis??jadi kwnkwn...jgnlh prsoalkn,marah,slh mnyalahi aturan Allah.terima dgn hati terbuka.insyaAllah pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya. :-) bersyukur k!

ps: tq laling pinjamkn i kete. jgn lupa brg kt lua yee!!

xoxo

rindunya.

                  lama sgt tertinggal minat yang satu..selamat datang november.